I am not sure how many people know this but some times when people are trying to motivate themselves to do something it can be really hard. It could be exercising, or studying or in my case getting work done on a game. The reason why is because the human brain is all messed up because we are wired for living lives that we simply don’t live anymore in the modern world. So regardless of whatever you plan or want to do, you need to factor in your subconscious mind having other thoughts and getting in the way. This is what causes things like procrastination or writer’s block.

So people who know about this sort of thing knows that once you get started doing something, it is a lot easier to keep doing whatever you are doing. The hard part is getting started because your subconscious mind will come up with all sort of excuses to distract you. So your brain thinks something like, “I don’t want to wash the dishes that is too much work, I will just watch youtube instead.” However, if you stand in front of the sink and wash two dishes, then your brain thinks “Well I am already here washing the dishes, might as well finish.” So a common way to trick yourself into doing stuff when your subconscious is being a pain is to make a very small goal for yourself then once you are doing it, you just keep on doing it.

Anyway, I have known all this for a long time and I do that some times to help me get stuff done because I procrastinate on a lot of things and always have. However, I notice it doesn’t work as well on games some times. If I say, I want to just write one or two scenes I still feel unmotivated at times and can’t start. However, I was thinking about this today and then I realized, that one of the reasons why I subconsciously am resisting doing the work, might be because in some games I have a lot of different paths, so deciding which path to work on at any given time is ‘hard’ to my subconscious mind.

So that gave me a new idea on how to get motivated. And this seems kind of silly but I tried it and it did work(will have to try it in the future to see if it continues to work). This is what I did though. I numbered all the branches and then I just rolled a die to determine which I was going to work on. Because I am rolling dice to decide, it completely remove any choice involved in which branch I am going to work on. In doing that my brain isn’t struggling with the ‘hard’ choice to deciding, and removes that obstacle to getting things done. It sounds silly but when you are trying to trick your subconscious to stop being lazy stuff like that really works.

Today has been kind of busy, and I couldn’t get too much stuff done as far as writing. Though hopefully I can get a bunch of stuff done tomorrow. The spam really does seem to be mostly stopped now too which is nice.

Well the spam seems fixed for now. Still not sure how much trouble registering is for people but at least I only get 5 spam comments per day, instead of per hour.

After I deleted all the comments, I saw I was getting like 5-10 spam comments per hour. I am trying to fix it, so I changed some settings. Now you have to register to be able to post and I put in some blacklisted words that normal people are unlikely to ever say, that will get the post held to be check if you post it. Registering might be annoying but that is how much of a pain the spam comments are. I did change it so that posts are automatically posted now, so you no longer have to wait for me to approve it anymore though.

I deleted all the comments on the website, since there was always a ton of spam, so much that it was impossible to ever go through all the comments to sort them, even with spam sorting tools. Like hundreds of thousands of spam comments. Anyway, I deleted all the comments, so I am going to try to deal with the same again but it gets crazy, and hopefully people can post and make comments without it being a huge issue.

So here is an interesting problem, if you write a sex scene for a game, then you want to make it really hot and sexy right? Well if you make it sexy, then it will get you all hot, and that is actually a bit distracting. Then if you write several sex scenes in a row, then that is even more distracting. The more the game falls towards being a porn type game, the worse the problem is. Though it also goes the other way. Since the human brain is wired to like sex, if you do a really hot sex scene, then you will want to write more sex scenes because your brain likes that. So if it is a story heavy game, you can be tempted to add more sex stuff, even if you are trying to focus on the story. That happens some times too.

Actually that is why I get distracted with random new games some times. Because I get an idea for something that would be really sexy, then want to write a lot of hot sex scenes for that. Though I go off to do that without thinking about the long term structure that would be best for such a game.

I am feeling better now. The test result for my family member came back for covid and they didn’t have, so since I likely got what they got, I shouldn’t have it either. I wasn’t 100% today but I got a lot of rest and got some writing done too. Though I did get a bit distracted on some side projects rather than my main project.

My neck was really sore today, and still a little cough but for the most part I am feeling better. I didn’t work on my main project today but instead did some writing for a little side project I came up with on a whim. I know I shouldn’t be starting random stuff, but I figure it will be okay since I am just recovering today and I am keeping it small.

I ended up getting a little bit of fever, but I am feeling better now. Hopefully tomorrow I will be back at 100%.

I posted the other day I was hoping that I wasn’t getting sick, well I think I am bit sick. My nose is a bit stuffed up and runny, though honestly it isn’t that bad. The biggest thing is my neck hurts. There is like one point in the middle of my shoulders that feels like it is getting pinched any time I turn my head.

That seems like an unusual combination of symptoms. Might be the cold, or allergies. Or maybe it really was covid with mild symptoms and my family member who had the fever had different symptoms(they still didn’t get test results). I don’t know, I guess I will see if I get a fever or not within the next few days.